so whats next?

well since you clearly are not interested in me, why should i waste my time on you. i don't want to sound like I'm dumping you because you dumped me in the first place. i wish i could erase everything that you said to me but it will take some time. obviously i needed closure with the relationship, perhaps i just need to delete you out of my life for quite some time. you don't deserve the pendant that i gave you. as much as i hated that i gave you that pendant, i hope you will safe keep it as a memory of me to you, if you want to sell it, its really your choice. i just loved one person too much and she doesn't seem to know

i think I'm probably gonna take up the ST offer...pay is good and i have relevant experience. i just hope i can climb the corporate ladder within if they allow. gonna let them know the decision if i don't hear from cmpb next week chatted with jiaqi for the past few days, asking how is "she" doing. told her how much i miss "her". she told me that "she" say i can see her if i want to. and even took a video of "her", and will consider us dating again if i ask her out, "she" just need me to man up. yea thats the story. I'm still trying to absorb this, honestly I'm very thrilled and happy to hear but lets face the facts. I'm not financially ready, yet. i really miss her and want to get back with her, but how sure i am to say that she will not throw me away like the previous time. but given her character, she rarely or almost never give second opportunities, I'm thinking she might feel we actually still have the ch