so whats next?

thanks to myself for taking up your shit in the past. I'm glad i did and you didn't appreciate it. i will just need to find someone who deserves it

well since you clearly are not interested in me, why should i waste my time on you. i don't want to sound like I'm dumping you because you dumped me in the first place. i wish i could erase everything that you said to me but it will take some time. obviously i needed closure with the relationship, perhaps i just need to delete you out of my life for quite some time. you don't deserve the pendant that i gave you. as much as i hated that i gave you that pendant, i hope you will safe keep it as a memory of me to you, if you want to sell it, its really your choice. i just loved one person too much and she doesn't seem to know

i think I'm probably gonna take up the ST offer...pay is good and i have relevant experience. i just hope i can climb the corporate ladder within if they allow. gonna let them know the decision if i don't hear from cmpb next week chatted with jiaqi for the past few days, asking how is "she" doing. told her how much i miss "her". she told me that "she" say i can see her if i want to. and even took a video of "her", and will consider us dating again if i ask her out, "she" just need me to man up. yea thats the story. I'm still trying to absorb this, honestly I'm very thrilled and happy to hear but lets face the facts. I'm not financially ready, yet. i really miss her and want to get back with her, but how sure i am to say that she will not throw me away like the previous time. but given her character, she rarely or almost never give second opportunities, I'm thinking she might feel we actually still have the ch

going for interview at ST satcom tomorrow, seems like its my destiny to go back (not really go back but back as in the same industry) to my previous job, love & hate. but i think destiny is coming, i hope so finally its done. at that point of time, when i get this for you, i had no idea that you would want to leave me. all i had in mind is i wanted the best for you. diamonds are women best friend, they say. i thought it would be nice if i could get you something that would be a symbol of my love and made you think of me when you wear that. it seems that i will never get to see the day you wear the necklace, given the fact that you left leave me for the better.  it doesn't hurt me actually, when you said you are allergy to jewelleries. i already accepted that you were my ex gf and its okay to embrace your flaws. i loved you for who you are, your stubbornness, your rage and bad behaviour, even your dark side which you once confided me into.  what hurt me the most w

so i went for the mindef interview today. to sum up everything, i think i did 5/10. i think they will reject me, as there are 2 more other interviewees before me and they did pretty well from the looks on how long their interview went.  there is another interview for me tomorrow. i heard its gonna be something like insurance agent. fuck BIG SPOILER ALERT for infinity war ! close now if you don't want to spoil yourselves so i watch infinity wars today, and i must say they did a good job in mindfucking all of us from the trailers and internet fan theories hahaha. the only part that i didn't like was how they introduced the soul stone. it was quite abrupt, much like how it was done in justice league. no context, just boom, lets snatch that soul stone from that place haha. gamora plays a key role in revealing the soul stone and yes she dies after being sacrificed by thanos to retrieve the soulstone. the movie did good in the introduction of the whereabouts of the a

just attended faris wedding. first time attending a malay wedding, pretty cool on how different it is from chinese wedding. i really love the food and the hospitality of the people there. makes me feel like part of their family. anyway congrats on your marriage bro, wish you have a healthy kid and an everlasting marriage. so i will need to confirm with the marina barrage docent job. but the thing is I'm torn again. as i have another interview with mindef this wednesday. and i really wanted that mindef job. i applied for it in february and now they have called me in for an interview this Wednesday. its 2 months since i heard from them. but i heard it very tedious and stringent on their selection thus the reason why the 2 months wait. so I'm here again, torn between 2 choices, give up the docent job or pray hard that mindef will hire me (I'm confident they will because the position is a diploma requirement but i have a degree, and I'm an ex regular). but i think i